Chapter 19: Forcing or Begging for Forgiving! 


Seyha’s P.O.V

After hearing from Tak about the relationship between Seya and Shu, I feel like Seya is a good person indeed but I cannot lose Manak to him. Anyway, now Manak lost his child and I think I can take this chance to enjoy the view in this place with Manak. After three bottles of red wine, Tak touch my shoulder and look at me with his sad expression. I don’t mind him as I know he is drunk now. He is not good at drinking but I was wondering why did he drink too much tonight. I am the one who should drink much because there is a lot of things happened unexpected to me. He still touches me tight and said, “How can I help you to solve this problem, I try to find solution for you but I could not find one.” I told no worry about my business as Shu is not the only one in this area of business. He continues, “not this one, it is another one, boss.” I asked him in a concern voice, “What is that?” He answered me in a drunk voice, “it’s May’s dad which you destroyed his business long ago. You might not remember, but I dug down her personal information before and I found out it accidently. Her family business was gone and you were the one who made it disappear. I am afraid, Seya used that as the threatening in your love with May.” I let Tak sleeps on my bed and I am sitting and drinking alone. I think I should tell her first before Seya does. 

Manak’s P.O.V

I can see how frustrating I am earlier, but I cannot stop thinking about hiding his child. Should I make clear this thing with him? I think if I make clear about this with him then I can restart everything. I don’t like keeping the secret with anybody and I think especially with him. I cannot sleep tonight as I keep seeing his face. I roll my eyes and move every second on my bed then I am not sure what time I fall asleep; when I woke up, it is 7:04 am and I went to do my morning business. I dress up like an office staff who is wearing black dress with black jacket and black high heel; my hair tie in a pony style and I put on light make up to see like a natural beauty secretary. I went to knock Mr. Seyha’s door and I am surprised to see Tak went out with a messy hair. He let me in the room and he left. I went inside and see Mr. Seyha is about to wear his tie then he looked me in the way asking me to help him. I smile and help him. I am talking about meeting today while tying his tie. He said nothing just listening to me and he told me to change dress as the meeting will take place at the romantic resort. I told him; I have only dresses for work. He sighed and said, “someone will bring them to you soon, just wait in your room.” I replied him okay and left him in the room. 

Seya’s P.O.V

I dragged Manak’s to her room after she left Mr. Seyha’s room. I did without no one noticed. I tried to move my hand from her mouth but stop when she heard my sound. I locked the door and told her secretly about the causes of her father’s bankruptcy. She cried and said, “It is not true”, but I handed her the docs about that case.” She said, “I will ask him as I know he won’t do sth like this.” Her sentence is breaking my heart. She believes him now even I have shown her the evidence. I shook her shoulder and asked her, you don’t believe me? How is our relationship with him? She did not reply just keep crying. I move my hands from her and about to leave but she holds my hand and said, “I have sth to tell you and I hope this thing will stop me from feeling guilty about our relationship.” I asked her to talk, “actually, when I left you, I already had your child but it was gone when I ran away from Mr. Seyha.” I punched the wall and asked WHY, then she continued, “Piya pushed me when I went to the toilet, but she did not know I was pregnant and I want this to stop here, pls do not go far as everything is over. Mr. Seyha took me in and take care of me while I have nothing. Moreover, he doesn’t take advantages of me at all. I hope you can forget everything.” I look at her and kiss her mouth softly. I feel everything is the same but she did not kiss me back. I heard someone is knocking the door so hard but I don’t care, I just want to hug and kiss her. She tries to push me but I don’t listen until someone broke the door and that is Mr. Seyha. I move my mouth from her and look at him with my rude attitude. How does it feel to see me here? She still loves me, did you see? We kissed, hugged, and if you did not break the door, I don’t know what would happen in this room? He hit me hard in the face then Manak came and defense me. I am so happy. His right hand drove me out of the hotel and I just scream at Mr. Seyha that “You won’t have her heart, especially, now.” I laughed and left. 

Seyha’s P.O.V

“Why?”, I asked her. My blood is boiling now. I don’t know what to do just only close my eyes on her bed with empty mind. She does not say anything which is like putting the oil on the fire. She stands next to the door with her messy make up. Her lipstick is spoiling, I guessed by the kiss earlier. I almost cry out cos of this. I dragged her to the toilet and washed her mouth then I used the towel to remove her make up and lipstick. She tries to push me away and I asked her why don’t you do the same when he was kissing you, or you like it? If you tell me, you are hungry about this sex thing just let me know I can help. I never expect this word came out of my mouth but I am really out of control now. She said, she hurts but I don’t listen. I carry her to my room and lock the door. She is so stubborn as she keeps trying to move away from me. I force her to lie down on my bed, I kiss her mouth so hard as I want to put all my anger on her lip, I suck her mouth take every inch in hers, her hands are in my hand, she cannot move so she uses her hip to move from me but no use as this action make it easy for me to access hers. I use another hand to move her dress. Finally, we have no clothes, I never expect that our first time is in the morning like this. I start kissing her and she stops pushing me away in return she lets me access her freely. I stop kissing her hard but softly. When we get what we want then we pause and continue slowly and fast as our feeling lead. Now she is asleep and I lie next to her by hugging her breast. I feel like not enough but I know she is tired due to my strokes.