Chapter 3: Social media 


After dinner, I was lying on the bed and checking my phone, the notification alerted me that I have one message in Telegram. I looked and see Peter sent me about my strange behavior toward him today. I have seen his message but I took 60 sec to reply him that, “I forgot”. That’s all of my reply and I know that it would make Peter upset but how about me? I am more upset than that. Peter has seen my message but he didn’t reply any word. About 30 minutes later, I decided to add him in FB and very sooner, he accepted my request. I didn’t wait any longer but to go through his profile and see his information, especially, his relationship status, but I found that he still in “single” at the relationship part, so I have a high hope of being his lover. When I went to his picture then I just saw few pictures of him when his friends tagged in. He is a secret person that he doesn’t like sharing his personal on social media but this makes me really want to dig and know more about him. I noticed that he likes sharing the song and the meaning of those songs related to broken heart and it seems like he has a crush on high school girl, for making me think about a girl who was sitting on the bench with his at school last weekend. Because of this thought, I didn’t say “Hi” after his accepted. 
It took me almost 5 days to say “Hi” to him in FB. When I sent him a message then he didn’t response me as fast as my mind expected. I saw he has seen my sms but he took almost 2 mns to reply my message. I don’t expect that he would reply just the word “Hi” back, so in this moment I felt ach in my heart and I have a thought about being in one-sided love. As a woman, I feel so much embarrassed that I keep bothering him about many things that I already knew, but those things help me get closer to him fast. Anyway, I know I am too much but I can’t help because this is “LOVE”. By the way, he is still the same; he replied late and just a short answer without asking anything like “how are you? Or what are you doing?” no at all. But this thing doesn’t bother me at all, however, I followed his IG on Friday night before class starts on Saturday. I went to his profile and photo but see only his profile picture… hmmm. My mission for finding out about who that girl is, is failing. 

Now the short hand of the clock on my wall point to number 12 and the long hand is on number 6, so it is 12: 30 am but I could not sleep. My both hands are holding my phone and scroll down and up to check any update of him. To be honest, when I know his full name in the first semester, I already went to check his profile but only zoom his profile picture and his profile doesn’t show his full face. I keep checking his profile every day and no any misses day, even though now, I am his friend in FB but I keep checking and staring at his profile picture. 

Today is Saturday, so I am ready for my morning class. I like going to school because I like making friend and meet other people. Along the way to school, I don’t like people do not follow the traffic law and keep breaking it such as this man next to my motor; he doesn’t wear the helmet and he is riding one hand while another hand is texting someone. 

Thanks, my lovely girl for dropping me! I said to my younger sister (Catherine).
You’re welcome! And enjoy your day. Ooop! Text me when you leave and don’t come home with Stefan, OK? Cath said. 
I responded, ok.