Chapter 6: I Miss You  


May!!! Are you here? Lily called me at work. 
Yes, I am here. I replied. 
Can you help me translate this letter and send to HR Dept.? Lily handed the paper to me.
Yes, when do you need it? I asked.
As soon as possible? She replied.
Okay. I nodded my head and back to my office. 
Lily is my manager and I am her personal assistant.  
I started reviewing and changing my schedule to be more busy than usual. After leaving working at 5: 00 pm I headed to my house then I started eating my snack while checking my email about my work. Finished snack, I started working on my assignment and when I do not understand the instruction I texted to Stefan for help. I keep bothering Stefan with my assignment and I feel like Stefan always there for me ,so, I question myself, “what’s with this person? He doesn’t work?”
I texted Stefan, “Hey! Are you free?”
He texted back, “Yes, I am” why?
Nothing. Then he called me and we have a long talk about work, study, sibling, and love. 
We hang up and I start doing my personal stuff. I work on my research until 12 am then I went to bed. I keep myself busy every day and I don’t bother checking any IG or FB or Telegram account and I don’t text Peter or disturb him like semester 1 but I don’t stop MISSing him; I MISS him so much! Love comes unexpected time, place, and person. I am always brave with doing thing but now I am so weak with confession my love to him. I don’t dare to check his profile nor do look at his picture in my phone. I miss his smile and I am wondering why did he act like I am special to him since semester 1 or I think myself? I thought about these things until 4am. 
May! Let’s go we have meeting now.
Ok, wait. I’ll take my notebook first. I replied to Lily.
Remember to take note about the marketing dept. very detail for me, okay?
Ok. Ooop! I forgot to bring my phone, so you go first and I’ll grab my phone quickly. 
She nodded as a yes and head to the meeting room on the first floor. 
Friday night is coming and I am sitting in the coffee shop near my house. I didn’t do anything beside listening to people chatting about their personal stuff. I keep remembering the day he holds my hand under the rain and took me home. I feel ache in my chest and my heart whispers to me that “at least you should confess; you might feel relieve after all”, but my mind told me “NO, don’t you DARE; he has girlfriend and they love each other so much, so you cannot be a third wheel to them.”
It’s been a week that he doesn’t contact me either, so it’s strange to me that why
my brain said, “girl always think a lot.” Another side of me said, “he acts strange as well.” Anyway, I have to be patient and act like normal for this weekend. 
In the afternoon on Saturday, my eyes keep searching Peter everywhere around the school hall through window but I don’t see him at all. He might be in the classroom and doesn’t go for break. I am not sure what is going on or I think alone but I feel like Peter is hiding from me or keep watching me as I am. 
I went home with exhausted like I just back from carrying the rock from mountian. My heart keeps screaming of Peter name and I don’t know why the power of love is so strong like this. For now, I just wish to see his face or hear his sound and that’s enough. 
Hey, why are you sitting here? It’s late now. Let go, I’ll take you home. Stefan looked at me and talked in a harsh sound because the rain is about to come due to the black cloud.
Oh, okay. I forgot to text my sister about picking me up by the way, thanks Stefan. Emm but why are you still in school? Where have you been?
I was at Cafeteria to do my introduction because tonight I have to join party at my aunt’s house.
I see. Okay let go home so you have more time to prepare. 
Along the way home, I still see the picture of the café shop where I had a group discussion and the place where Peter were holding my hand. It’s raining and Stefan stopped the motor and asked me, “we should find the place to stay until the rain stop first, okay?”
No, could you take me home now?
But… okay.
Stefan doesn’t refuse my request when he saw my sad face.